Now to think that event with my dad was bad enough. Like I sad it doesn't end there. My mom has that same rage like my dad does. But to make things worst she gos to church! An they highly discrimanate gays. I can't tell you how much times I've heard adam an eve not adam and steve. Oh an not to mention a huge portion of my family has that hate towards gays like my parents do. An a lot of them go to church so you could only imagine all the negative energy I get with gays or the topic of being gay, or anything that gay in general. Plus when ever gay topics come on t.v. She always saying that god done love gays, or that that a huge sin. An that gays will all burn in hell, an then laugh about it like its a good thing. Saying being gay is like a disease. That need to be stopped. That gay marriage will only bring about there kids being gay an a whole bunch of bullshit. That shit fucking pisses me of. Cause it like she talking about me. And she make it seem as if being gay is as bad as lieing killng stealing an all those other sins. When you think about it, being gay not even in that catagory An it always have me thinking I'm going something wrong an that I'm truly not loved an a whole bunch of other emotions. Sometimes I would just cry when I'm alone because I don't know what to do. I mean yeah I got a couple of people that know about my secert. But that only due to the fact that they were people I've had sex with. An there just as scared as me. They best advice they gave me was to keep it as a secert an never give any signs that I might be gay. I have no problem keeping it a sercet I mean I'm very popular, good in almost any sport. Cool with everyone. Great dancer, Have a hot body that girls notice. I even went out with a couple of girls an fucked them. But I was never the same as fuckin a dude. An some girls I would imagine that it was a dude I was fuckin. I hate the fact I force myself on a day to day bases to flirt wirh girl when I rather flirt with guys. I hate that my family has such a strong hate towards gays. I hate that if I tell it would change how everyone thinks of me. I hate how gays are veiwed on so badly like its something bad. An for those reasons I fear coming out an telling the truth. I fear what might happen to me. Please comment an give me some advice. Email me or I.m me at tightass@yahoo.com
