Submitted by cock_sucker last October 24th 2007, 06:10 AM

Category: Sex Stories

Jamie sat looking out the window thinking about all that had gone on while Johnny slept in the other room. It was 3 AM and he couldn't sleep. He kept thinking about Johnny and what he had read in his notebook. He wished he hadn't thrown it in the fireplace and watched it burn. It was an act of stupid bravado in the face of Johnny's identity crisis. As if the act of throwing it in the fire would give Johnny the catharsis he needed. Johnny openly admitting his homosexuality to Jamie last night was a first step but it wouldn't keep Johnny out of the closet. In a nutshell Johnny was homosexual and up until this point didn't like it. Specifically, he didn't like other people knowing it. He kept looking for ways to deny it. That much was clear from the notebook but notebook made other things clear.

The writings in the notebook ran the gauntlet. Some parts were autobiographical others were full of desperate self denial and convoluted rationalizations. Surprisingly, in some sections, Johnny showed he could be truthful about himself. Other parts that were purely pornographic. Johnny had been a part of the gay cruising scene that was centered around the “Cock and Balls” for quite sometime. He had been an enigma because once the night or weekend of what he called male2male debauchery was over he would disappear into anonymity until the next time he showed up at the “Cock and Balls”.

Jamie accepted Johnny's need for anonymity like many of the others on the gay cruising scene. Johnny was well liked, fun to be with and when it came to sex Johnny was hot, hard, horny and up for almost anything. Whether it was a one on one encounter, a three way or a moresome Johnny was one hot uninhibited bitch in bed. From Johnny's notebook Jamie had a clear understanding of Johnny's need for anonymity. Johnny didn't want to be queer but he had needs. Johnny thought that by limiting his homosexuality to cruising and placing classified ads seeking anonymous sex that part of his life would remain an anomaly he could easily explain away as experimentation, bisexuality or occasionally as perversion.

Johnny's first sexual experience, other than masturbation, was giving his older cousin a hand job. He sucked his first cock while he was in middle school. When he was a first year high school student three older guys got him alone and took turns fucking him. Johnny found he liked being fucked almost as much as liked sucking cock. He had gone out with girls and even fucked a few but by the time he was in his last year of high school his sex partners were exclusively male. There had been rumors about Johnny for years but by his last year in high school most students knew Johnny was queer. Even so Johnny couldn't connect the dots of his own life. It was like each homosexual act was totally separate from any other. It was only in those moments of rare clarity when Johnny allowed himself to add them all up that he could see his rationalizations based on experimentation with homosexuality were fantasy.

Having sex with a few females did not a bisexual make especially in Johnny's case. Johnny had sexual relations with a total of four females while in his second and third year of high school. Often when he kiss them he would fantasize he kissing another male. When he took off their tops, removed their bras and felt their tits he would fantasize they were shemales. He was always disappointed when in the heat of sexual activity he would slide his hand under their skirts and into their panties and felt wet pussy. What he really wanted to find between their legs was a hard cock and balls. Even so he didn't mind fucking them because it made his cock feel good but it never really satisfied his sexual needs. There were times he would go down to the park looking for a cock to suck after one of his dates. The closest sexual satisfaction came for Johnny with a female was when he had sex with Lorrie who wore a strap on and fucked Johnny in the ass. Johnny's bisexual rationalizations were just as bad as his experimentation ones. The truth be known he experimented with heterosexually for a short time.

In the notebook Johnny's perversion argument of why he engaged in homosexual acts just as crazy as everything else. In high school Johnny was just as much of a slut and whore as some of the girls were. He had a reputation for willingly going off with most any guy who made a play. Most high school guys liked having their cocks sucked. There were quite a few guys who didn't care who sucked their cocks as long as it felt good and they could shoot their cum in someone's mouth. Shooting cum in someones mouth was a big deal for a lot of guys. It was an act sexual dominance and submission. For Johnny being on his knees was an act of worship and he would lose himself in the act of giving oral pleasure. It was communion when a guy would shoot his load in Johnny's mouth. Johnny was very popular in high school with certain guys. Being a whore and slut was not enough for Johnny to define himself as a pervert even through he did.

Some of the things he wrote about in his notebook might be considered perverted if taken out of context such as the times Johnny dressed up for Kenny in his sisters things. He did it because Kenny asked him to. He wanted to please Kenny so he put on Aria's lipstick, eye shadow, mascara, a pair of lace bikini panties, a very sexy micro skirt and sexy camisole crop top. At this time in his life the only relationship role models Johnny had were heterosexual. With guys Johnny wanted to act out “the girl” role. Dressing up in his sisters sexy things gave Johnny a way of acting out his desires of being the femme in the relationship. It was the beginning of his adaptation of traditional gender roles to same-sex relationships. Being a femme, dressing and wanting to please another man in a relationship was not any more perverted when it was a girl. Even Johnny could see that most of the time.

In some circles everything homosexual is a perversion. Johnny was brought up in an atmosphere of homophobia. So it was no wonder that when he found out he enjoyed holding his cousins cock and jacking him off he felt guilty but never guilty enough to stop thinking about it and more than willing to do it anytime his cousin wanted. According to his farther cock suckers were bad enough but sodomites were a perversion of the laws of nature. When his father made that pronouncement it had only been a week since Johnny found himself alone with three guys who were not going to take no for an answer. Even through it hurt and his ass had been soar for days Johnny wondered what his father would think if he knew his son loved being a cock sucker and sodomite. Yet his father's prejudices and hatred of homosexuals had their effect and Johnny would often feel he was a pervert. If anyone was a pervert it was his father.

Jamie was troubled as he thought about Johnny, his notebook and their friendship. Jamie had first met Johnny at the “Cock and Balls” a gay cursing bar with an English pub facade. The sign outside had a big rooster on it with three balls in an arrangement that at one time signified a pawn shop. It looked like the legitimate name for a pub and fooled the occasional straight guy or heterosexual couple. Once inside it was immediately clear it was a different cock and balls the males inside were interested in.

It was actually quite a diverse group that were attracted to the “Cock and Balls”. The owners catered to almost every sexual taste through a series of flamboyant theme nights. There was no cover charge for TVs or shemales Monday's “An evening of Leather and Lace”. They even hand a shemale wet tee shirt contest. Other nights were devoted to leather, dominance & submission, older/younger guy relationships and bondage & discipline. Quite frequently there would be fashion shows specifically targeting the masculine and leather crowds. Anything could happen and did.

Jamie was on the prowl the night he first met Johnny looking for some fresh meat. He had a clear view of the guys entering the “Cock and Ball”. Jamie's type was guys who were attractive, slim, submissive and on the femme side. When he saw Johnny walk in he thought to himself, “Wow, nice, him I want to fuck”. Johnny had dressed in thin white gauze draw string pants that fit snugly showing off his slim hips, firm buns and left no doubt about what he had between his legs. He wore a sexy fashionable crop top made of the same thin white gauze that hung loosely above his belly button. He wore thin strap sandals and completed his outfit a thin black ribbon choker. The outfit was designed for a sexy harem boy. And sexy he was. As Johnny stood in the light having his ID checked and paying his cover Jamie could clearly see Johnny had on a pair of sexy white T-back bikinis. As he turned and continued on Jamie knew he had to make a move at once. He didn't want this one to get away.

Jamie walked right up to Johnny, smiled and said, “You are fucking hot and I think I am in love let's go have a drink. Johnny rejoined without missing a beat, “I think you mistake lust for love but it is an honest one. Sure, I'd love to have a drink with you.” And that is how their relationship began. Over the last month or so they had been going to gay parties and gay weekends together so much so that a lot of guys thought they were an item. In someways Jamie did too. It wasn't an exclusive relationship since both had outside sexual relationships that they had begun sharing with each other. If they had a 3-way was the two of them and another guy. They even did a gay wife swap with a Massachusetts married gay couple. No matter what Johnny would disappear into anonymity until last night.

Jamie was 6 years older than Johnny and had previously been in a few male2male romantic relationships. He was pondering now what to do about Johnny. He liked Johnny a lot through maybe it would could work out between them. He knew that with Johnny not having a totally sexually exclusive relationship the both enjoyed 3-ways and the occasional moresome for that. For them it would be loyalty and possibly love. If they did get together Johnny would have to take him to meet his sister and introduce Jamie as his boyfriend. They would do a tour as an openly gay couple so Johnny could never go back into the closet. Jamie began to fantasize about Johnny as his gay wife and it made him hard. He gently stroked his cock as he day dreamed then stood up. His mind was made up and he walked into the bedroom.

Johnny was lying on his right side with his legs stretched out. Jamie got into bed next to him his hard cock up against Johnny's tight buns. He had one arm around Johnny lightly touching his nipples and kissing the back of Johnny's neck. Johnny started to stir. Jamie's hand moved from Johnny's nipples to between his legs. He could feel Johnny getting hard as he fondled his cock. Johnny moved one of his legs up the way a man does when he is ready to receive another man's cock. Johnny was awake now and made a slight moan as Jamie put KY on his ass and inserted a finger. As Jamie inserted his thick, rock hard nine and a half inch cock Johnny moaned, “I love you” Jamie kissed Johnny on the neck as he slow fucked him. “I love you to Johnny and tonight I am going to love you with my cock. Feel my love for you Johnny it is nice and hard. I am so fucking hard for you hard the way a man loves a wife. Feel me love you baby, feel my love.” Johnny moaned, “Oh Jamie, I love you, I love you. Your love, Ohhh, Ohhh, your love feels so good. So good. So good. Ohhhh, yes. Give it to me hard Jamie. Fuck me hard. Fuck me hard. Fuck your wife hard.” Johnny turned his head towards Jamie and their mouths met with the deep sexual heat lovers have.

Jamie knew how to fuck. He knew how to use his cock. He turned up the heat and started to deep fuck Johnny with long hard strokes. He would almost withdraw his cock then ram it all the way in as far as he could. Johnny liked it he could tell. Johnny's ass was nicely dilated for him. Every now and then he would withdraw his cock and tease Johnny by inserting only a little more than the head of his cock and then withdraw. That really turned the both of them on. Jamie was getting close but he didn't want to cum just yet. So he stopped fucking and held Johnny close with his cock deep inside his ass. He knew if he slow fucked, especially slow fucked, he would shoot his load. He stopped kissing Johnny. He didn't want to do anything that would make him cum but he didn't want to take his cock out either.

Jamie loved fucking. Each position had a different meaning although whenever a guy took another guy's cock in his ass it was always an act of submission. Fucking a guy from behind was an ultimate act of sexual dominance. Jamie had been with guys he picked up at the bar who would change their minds when Jamie started to insert his thick cock in their tight asses. All he had to do was get his cock started and it was easy to force them in that position. Jamie didn't like to take no for an answer. Jamie found it more personal fucking a guy who was on his back with his legs up like a bitch. Johnny like fucking that way then again Johnny was a bitch. But for intimacy and dominance combined side fucking was what he and Johnny liked best. It was a position two guys could make love it.

He could feel Johnny moving his hips. He was ready again and began to slow fuck Johnny with long deep strokes. Johnny moaned, “Ohhh Jamie, baby, Jamie, baby, I love you. Oh your love feels so good. Oh, you fuck so good. Ohh baby, baby, baby.” As Jamie began to fuck Johnny faster and harder he reach down between Johnny's legs and started to stroke his hard cock. “Oh, Johnny's nice and hard. You hard for me baby?” Johnny replied breathing hard, “Yes, oh yes, Jamie, yes” Jamie stroked Johnny faster and fucked him harder. “Ok, sweetheart, your gonna cum with me. Your going to cum with me Johnny, yes baby, Johnny, Johnny, Johnny, Ohhhhh, Johnny, Johnny, I ready, ready, ready, I love you Johnny, I love you, Johnny, Johnny, I am going to cum in you, Oh Johnny, here it comes, here it come, ohh Johnny my cummmmm for youuuuu. I'm cumming for you. My cum is for you” Jamie was still stoking Johnny's cock as he had his orgasm and Johnny began shooting cum everywhere.